This is honestly just become a place for me to vent every time something in my love life changes. I guess because every other part of my life is pretty consistents. My job is good, even though I think my next post is going to be a vent about what I should be doing next because that has been something that is constantly stressing me out and I have just pretending it is something that I don’t actually have to think about. And I do have exciting news, I booked my sister and I flights out to San Diego!!!!! I am soooo pumped to be back in San Diego. Clearly I loved it soo much that it will be my second time there in less than a year. Seriously, I don’t know if it was because it was my first time out there but I have never felt so at home and like in place with somewhere (other than DC obviously) than when I was there back in September. Now I get to take my sister out west, it will be her very first time. I am so excited I cannot wait. I have been planning out all of the things that I want to see with her and more importantly all the places that I want to eat and drink. We are going to rent a car and just experience the beach and downtown and pretend weare super SoCal.
I guess that was a decent life update. Also a bunch of my friends are moving around right now which is super exciting for everyone. Even though life is so confusing and it really does sound like no one knows what is going on, it is exciting to here about what everyone is up to and the cool things that people are getting themselves into. And now I feel like I am rambling more so that it looks like I am concerned about more things than just boys. The weirdest thing is though, boys are the thing that I am least concerned about. Like when something weird happens, I just shake my head and think well they will be back I am not worried about it. And that has been true for basically everything that has been happening. I have so much stuff going on with work and friends and my family that I don’t sit and obsess over what boy toy might have said or done or what he didn’t say or do. You know it just is it what it is.
Anyways, the new development is I have a date this weekend. Not a date with any of my old suspects but actually a first date with someone new. I am really excited and nervous, it is just so weird because I haven’t been on a date with someone new in a really really long time. Like I always go out with people who I have been seeing for a while now and I have been doing the almost relationship thing with boy toy for so long that it hasn’t been new in a very long time. I mean I still get excited and a little nervous to see him everytime I do see him but when I am with him it is just very very comfortable. I know him, and I know how he will respond to most things that I say and I don’t worry about upsetting him. Like this guy, as much as we are not a couple, he has been around for some time that he has seen me go through some shit and like I never have to explain who I am talking about or re-explain who people are. As much he might have not wanted to know, he knows my family and knows of our family dynamic, knows of my friends (and some of there issues), knows of my job issues. This new guy is completely new and so I have to explain everything to him when I start talking to him. But its refreshing to have someone new who isn’t a habit. I don’t know how he is going to react or how things are going to go. And that is really exciting.